Hello there beautiful humans,
Since after my last post so many of you have given me love and support (you guys are beyond incredible!) I just wanted to say thanks and let you know I’m doing alright.
As you remember, I was seriously considering ceasing the blog but then I realised that Into The City is probably the reason I’m still able to handle certain things the way I do. That I can’t quit, that I don’t actually want to quit.
All the beautiful comments, private messages and texts full of kindness made me realise how lucky and privileged I am to be a part of this wonderful community. You, the amazing blogging girls I interact with on a daily basis, are absolutely extraordinary. I am oh so thankful for the love you give me when I make myself believe that nobody loves me and for the care you surround me with when I think that nobody cares. Every flipping day you empower me and inspire me to accept all the challenges, each time I want to give up you encourage me to fight. And I know I can win with you by my side. It’s priceless. You girls are truly special and precious. Thank you from the bottom of my ‘patched-up patchwork taped-up tape-deck’ heart. ❤️
Two weeks ago I couldn’t imagine my life at all and when I thought I had used the lifetime limit of shit, it only got worse- I’m sure you’ve been there too, I’m sure you know how it is. A lot of bad things happened in the meantime and I don’t feel particularly stronger or wiser but I decided to give it a go and instead of drawing in sadness and grief, start to live my life for a change.
Our time is limited and I’m pretty certain that when we look back at our life in a few years we will be more likely to regret the things we didn’t do than the things we did. It’s by no means easy but I’m coming back on track, to my old, happy self despite everything- I finally visited the exhibitions I wanted to see for months, I bought the tickets to two music festivals I was postponing to ‘next year’ and booked some weekend trips. It’s probably not the best time for spending as I’m literally broke (long live freelance jobs!) but have you ever actually seen ‘the best time’? It never comes. I wish we could pause life for a while and wait for at least ‘better’. But we can’t. Therefore I want to cherish each moment, I want to have fun and do what makes me happy not giving the tiniest of shits about the rest. Because life won’t wait.